i wanted to update tmr. but tmr shall be another post if possible. =D
well, last paper already! chemistry! YESZAAAAA!
my fingers just recovered though. it was swollen! *pathetic face* haha
but really, i couldn't bend my right hand fingers. all four of it. and it really grew fatter.
but i recovered already. and i didn't complain okeh! now then i want to *sobs* haha
i don't really want to talk about the papers. i couldn't bring myself to start thinking about what's going to happen next. =D
well, band starting soon. cant wait.

going to have like post-exams activities, then release of results, then holiday.
only God knows what im feeling. i dont know whether i should be scared, happy, excited
or whatever else. the situation is such a pain.
the suspense, the results, the trips. TSK
band starting soon. Yay! or Yay? i dont know. see.



i dont know how love feels anymore. so i dont know how you feel. i dont know what you're going through. i dont know how to be there for you. although i know i've been there before. i know its not the same. my heart was ever hurt, my love was thrown away, like thrash and maybe not once. but i couldn't feel it anymore. i couldn't understand. and when i thought i did, i know i couldn't be of any help. like i said, its not the same. all i know and im very sure of is that everything hurts. it hurts to see you cry. even when we know it might be your fault. it hurts to know all those years are just wasted time and moments and memories. it hurts to see these thing fails in front of you. it hurts to be aware of everything. it hurts to know that i have been hurting you. i never wanted to be selfish. i should have understood your situation but have you been fair to me either? i know now is not about me. but when then? when can it be about me? it hurts you too, doesn't it? my ego, his ego. it does right? i really hope i could rewind time. to see what went wrong. or just rewind further back and stay in the past. but what's done is done. people change. truth will be told. time will tell its tell. you have to let go somehow.


owell, oh! just remembered. went to Charlotte's birthday party last night.
so little people. other than her family members lah. its was held at her aunt's place.
some condo deep deep inside Kambangan area. was late and the last one to arrive.
wanted to buy her birthday present. but since i was already late, decided to change my mind.
and go there empty handed. but she'll get her present. first one on my 'to buy souvenir for' list.
since i'm going Hong Kong. =B whatever. wanted to swim there. but then, i lazy pack stuff.
so dont care. just got my feet wet since Bryan and Aron already splashed on them.
and my face! hit my eyes somemore! got contact lens you know! lol
watch them swim and Vania and Jian Hao dont know do what while me and Jing Yi just sat and chilled.
then we go eat. after eat then we chilled at the jacuzzi area. Charlotte brought sparklers.
the whistling one. then we play awhile then something happened. so we stopped.
so went back to eat somemore. then Charlotte cut cake. then happy2. then me and Aron have cake war. he started it.
Aron damn busted. and gay too. ask me accompany him go toilet. haha.
but i still go ah coz i wanted to go toilet too. we didnt go in the same toilet though. please
then walk back. then Bryan and Aron started playing with my hair. wait, i cant remember how it started.
maybe Bryan started it but anyway, yeah they were like tying my hair in this ultra high bun.
look like some Japanese hairstyle just that, its more retarded. then he center-parted my hair.
HE FREAKING CENTER-PARTED MY HAIR! and he says that its HOT! and know what i said?
haha " I'M NOT LEA MICHELLE LAH, YOU ASS! " because i know how much Bryan want her to be his wife if all other dream wives doesn't want to be his wife.
haha
Aron help me with my hair then i left because its almost 11. like just say bye and walk off.
then Aron was like catching up, because he also want to leave. so we walk together.
kind of ALMOST got lost because we followed his shortcuts and walk under the void decks.
but we didn't so Aron proud. whatever.
then we walk to the other side of the road. alot and alot and alot of empty cab pass by.
i was like flagging and he'll be like "NO!! GO BUS STOP!" *drag me* repeatedly until we were close enough to the bus stop
and he flagged a cab for me. how sweet. the cab smells like watermelon.
and got cockroach also. wth right!. i would have screamed if i wanted to.
but i didn't. haha i so man. LOL. so i was like sitting at the edge of my seat so
that the cockroach won't climb up my back. omg, unimaginable.
then reached home. blablabla.

so i finally updated. people like Jeffrey should get a life. haha
honored? lol seriously, because if not i have to update more post.
when you dont even have any blog! do you? lol


okayokay
ending here
bye