im back to update. hello.
so life have been great.
today i patch back with sudiana.
means, im nt single anymore.
got back one of my lesbian partner.
nw im back in being a lesbian.
what can i say...

lol, okay i find 'talking' in straight tone is retarded. haha
its been so long since i online. just now elephant grow paddlefeet.
cn swim faster than duck. today is boring. i was supposed to go for some malay compo writing competition.
one of the criteria to participate is for us to borrow 6 books from the library.
and i didnt. coz i forgot. since there was band yesterday that got me so tired.
no, i wasnt tired coz of band! will get there soon. and when i remembered, it was too late.
it's already 10.30pm. i texted cikgu and she never layan. then i also heck care.
thought of borrowing it the next day, which is today. but the istruction say the receipts
must be dated some date to 9th july. and today is already 10th july. haha so i heck care also.
and they wanted to meet at Aljunied mrt at 8.15am and i really cant plan my timing coz
i dunoe hw long my journey will be. and i heck care also. lol so in the end, i waste my tym slacking at home.

about the tired part. yah i wasnt tired coz of band. i was tired coz i was mad.
at rashareena. gt so pissed. sumpah. lucky there's aswan, saved my life. good thing
that he live nearby and that he is a kaypo that likes to peep out of his window. if
not maybe im gona hold grudges till now. but yeah, most probably not coz i cant be
mad for too long. and after all, she is still my junior. got to accept her mindset.
after blowing my top, i seriously got so exhausted coz it made me cry.
i mean, its a normal and automatic thing that gona happen when im super mad.
but it was just a matter of minute. i chilled afterwards. thanks to shikin and yuni for helping (:
they have endless supply of tissues. wow. haha

and oh, raimov almost got hit by the bus. close shave sia. blame sudiana.
haha dont know what we were doing then sudiana pushed raimov indirectly.
she pushed me lah, then i pushed raimov, then he land on the road. lucky he was somewhere near the bus' door and not the side mirror.
lol, we were laughing so hard and loud that we didnt hear the bus coming.

kay what else?

ooh, im back in using the shitty puki cookie phone. haha
i left my boyfriend. i dont want to hurt him. he ate too much until he couldnt open his mouth.
he couldnt digest the protein, carbohydrate and fats to all different cells.
haha what crap linda talking? my memory card got full, i tried to arrange my inbox according to names and in the end it couldnt open inbox.
i was so scared im gona have to sacrifice him by trading him in that i decided to gave up on him instead
and use another phone. at least he havent officially died or we have officially broke up.

kay, thats all?

oh wait, how i wish i could read minds.

despite sudiana advise about not to talk about humans, im still gona do it.
coz this one, not exactly human. hahah

things may sound like it has already fallen back into place again but the truth is
no change has been made at all. at all. a shattered glass was left to heal by itself.
you came back to fix it, it sounded so easy. smithereens can never be fixed you know.
it has been awkward and what, its still awkward. i think i know why, coz you changed.
you love your new life now. you've moved on with it. you're already so comfortable. you're starting anew.
oh wait, you didnt. you just became what you were before you joined us.
you were not yourself when you were with us. you change just when you joined us.
and when i thought you really have already changed.
truth is, im tired of thinking about you. but i cant help it coz deep down, i know i still care.
when i seriously know i shouldnt have bothered coz i dont think you cared that much.
and furthermore, you came back. you mess with the flow. and you're gone again.
what you want anyway? i really wish you will read this. coz pls, im so tired of entertaining all this.
or, is it coz u expect us to make the first move?

aiyah, lantak kao lahh..

haha
okay, sudiana. updated

byebye