people change . influenced and pressurized by peers .
or probably , they change just because they feel like it . they got bored with this circle .
we used to treat everyone equally . getting the same treatment .
happily . well , at least thats how it used to seem like .
we used to care for one another , everyone is concerned for each others' whereabouts , studies and so on .
but now , some people get a better treatment which seems like they love to be in the center of attraction . and others didnt mind about it .
because they are the one giving the treatment .
now we , who still wants to keep the flow as how it used to , felt so left out , alone and abandoned .
they share laughter among themselves . not involving the people around as if we dont exist .
they give that *up to u* kinda thing attitude . maybe not everyone .

shutting oneself out , being asked by others okay or not , still keeping quiet , others give that *i dont give a shit already and whatever * face just because their answer are not replied .
isnt the answer quite straightforward already ?

pretty obvious that they asked just for the sake of asking .
at least thats how it looked like . there's no more sincerity .
things used to get better afterwards , but now , everyday is already different .
its not going to get any better .
where did the love that everyone used to have gone to ?
where did all the memories that should have at least been appreciated disappear ?
life was better back then .
yet again , people change . which people like me are not prepared to accept it .
but its their life . who am i to change them if i dont have a place in their heart anymore .
or maybe i never had a place at all .

this whole post is just about me and my feelings . and about how things looked like from my view in my position .
maybe you dont know who i'm referring to . if you think i'm referring to you , before you get mad , get the whole picture first . you might understand , that i'm sad .
i dont expect anything , i'm just feeling sorry for myself that i felt so useless as a friend .

this isnt just it .