hello peepo.
i'm updating for the sake of updating.
English test is just 2 more days. which is this Thursday.
i haven't study. nahhh, not going to be soon.
i really should stop staring and start acting.
yeah, i know future ahead is not going to be a smooth journey.
bed of roses do die without water. nothing comes out nice without effort.(what lame theory)
i better start thinking of what i want. and buck up. mummy nags about boyfriend too.
' i give you education, you fool around with boys. waste time chatting, smsing yadaa yadaa yadaa yak '
its not like i have boyfriend also. takde matae bising, ade matae pn bising. what she want????

facebook sucks lah kay. so tight security!....
you can only change your name once.
you can't delete your account except deactivate it.
therefore, you can't create a new account.
which that was what i was trying to do since i online.
i regret listening to AMIRUL! because of him, i land myself in facebook.
he told me to use facebook and play this pet game with him, padahal he just want to buy me after that.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
dahlah tkde gambar, tkleh groom plaktuu.
nk create baru pn tkleh, dah pakai account same.

ending here
29.09.2009
bye hearts

wearing this uniform has become some cursed thing to do for me.
which was ages long since i last touch that thin blue cotton thing.
i was already late in the morning for school. need to iron shirt some more.
tie day so cannot wear P.E. and, i'm tie-less. lucky Amirul got extra tie.
the day was great until after school. all spirit gone. buto
i'm really tired. tired of being there, when no one even cares.
tired of being there when i wasnt appreciated.
tired of being there for them, but when its my turn, no one was there.
tired of trying so hard, when no one bothers.
tired of bothering so much since everyone careless.
im tired of being so nice. im tired putting up too many fronts to make them think nothing's wrong.
im tired of having to lie to myself for others sake, just to see everyone happy.
im tired of running away. being alone is no longer a peaceful moment.
its just another hurtful experience. you dont just stand and stare.
i shouldnt have made full use of that moment.

but everything's better now. pity birthday boy lah, pujok me from morning to night.
huahua. but its massively due to me not being able to stay mad for long.

ending here
byebye

the day haven't end. school as per normal. lazy to elaborate.
had assembly for freakkkkking long. blardy teachers.
rushed home with Charlotte. didn't went down to canteen to say bye to the rest.
didn't even inform them that we're leaving. haha.
so took the first bus and took half round.
accompanied Charlotte bought junks. and bought a kinder joy for myself.
she goes gaga over the surprise that kinder joy contains. haha
silence in the bus. i mean really. we just pass stares and smiles.
she alighted and i slept. woke up just in time. alighted. gawd, this sounds lame.
i reached home early. for ages long. now is like the first time i reached home early.
online. Wah Jing talked to me after so long, suddenly.
JUST TO ASK FOR VANIA'S NUMBER. -.-
kay so now, i still have guests. yet i'm in my room. dont care lahh.
tomorrow is Friday. no outing has been confirmed.
NONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
can just forget it lah friends. kite dtg umah korg sudah. gerek?
tkyah pening2 kepala aku nk pk psl korg peh feelings..

i read Syiqin's years ago blog post. hahaha
she described the situation damn detailed that i remembered them just like yesterday.
i realised how busted and immature i was at that time.
she also babi ah mengumpat psl aku. huahua. joking.
but yeah, i know we were too young to understand and think.
we did lotsa wrong in the past but we didn't hold grudges anymore.
in fact now, we have more to laugh about. we're still friends.
though people did change. 8 yrs and counting. =D

Mr Poh dah fly. he go meet Chen Pei. haha. he must be enjoying himself.
LOL. linda busted sakk.

29. 09. 2009 =D
bye hearts

today is wednesday.
school starts late but i woke up early. with Charlotte. haha.
we planned to eat breakfast with the coupons that we received for the most punctual class.
lame. so met at inter and finally made up our mind to eat breakfast without using the coupons.
haha. so bdk 202 melayu, klu nak mintk yerr.
ate and crapped. Charlotte is a pig nowadays. haha
she's been eating her plates clean. recess and lunch! which was rare.
LOL. then we had a morning walked from inter to school.
watched video during cme. was still full till recess. drank water then P.E.
played captain's ball. tired, lucky not fasting.
then english. did some vocabulary stuff. then Ryan Y. make a balloon flower sculpture for me.
how sweet. went for science. That old guy boast about himself again.
he said, ' i spent 6 yrs in primary school, 4yrs in secondary school, sumthing-yrs in JC, sumthing-yrs in University. 17 yrs of learning. you all are not even halfway there. you just studied for 8 years.'
half awake during his lessons. didnt look at slides even. i dont understand what he teach.
went for lunch and were planning who to invite for Raya outing with sec sch friends.
numbers are small. tap klu npk orang, rumah tk muat siakkk. haha.
then went for maths. blur abit. actually, alot.
Linda was half dead back then. then cant stand. walked out of class after lesson.
smiled at JianHao and Jacqueline then head home straight.
i was rushing for time and i badly need a bed.
so leave them alone. hahaa.

so now at home. Reza sms-ed to share some problem he had.
alah.. poor thing. i'm here kay friend. anyth can picit. i'll entertain
if prepaid tak low yerr. haha

why things happened unexpectedly.
i shouldnt have bothered in the first place.
what is it that i want?
haha. feelings mepek sakk linda.
i really shouldnt have bothered playing game with Raimov! haha

ending here
byebye

Ini untuk bdk2 melayu lah yer. klu tak dpt sms, baca je dari sini. jimat duit. =D

i thought of not updating till FYE but...

i'm in school everyday during this period of time called HOLIDAY.
how saddening. okay, let's not be so self-centered ; the whole 202 band member.
there's like one thing after another. excluding Sundays. and i haven't
touch my homework yet.

i was experiencing brain freeze during combine just now.
and was enduring a blocked nose. and feeling rather feverish.
and so, I HATE CHARLOTTE! she spread the virus to me.
okay, i'm lazy to elaborate.

like what Mr Poh told us just now during band ; not happy, say. (simplified version)
Aswan is daring me to do so. do it to him. i can ah. but, i find it useless.
because people like him don't understand english.no wait, malay also.
its not like the first fucking bloody time that i spotted the way he treat his friends.
i say nicenice also nothing change. i'm affected because his friends are mine too.
furthermore, now fasting month. i'm controlling myself here.
i'm letting go, because i no longer care. i can't be bothered anymore.
enough is enough ah. now then you want to bring up the matter.
i could have just screamed at your face, like what you do, in the first place but i know i'll be cursed instead like what you get from them.
but because i'm not like you, thats why. and its not like i never tried approaching nicely okeh.


he must find any reason just to get on my nerves.
spoil my bloody entire mood. and he must be destroying them when i'm in the good mood to blog.